Just a Girl

So my theme for December is of course Christmas. In the poems I posted this month, I focused on some of the pivotal people and moments surrounding Christ's birth, rather than his actual birth. People for centuries have discussed and celebrated Christ's birth, and well we should, but feel I can relate to the human side to the Christmas story more than I can the earthly.

So" I Wonder How Mary Felt" is Mary's story and me trying to put myself into her shoes. I realize that times were different and that by all accounts she was considered a woman when the angel visited her, but I can't help thinking that my first response would not have to been to break into a song of praise. God obviously knew her heart and had prepared her, but I can't help wondering if she ever had any doubts or just plain freaked out a little.

Now it does say in Luke 1: 29, "Mary was greatly troubled at his words and wondered what kind of greeting this might be." But by verse 38 she had already accepted and fully embraced God's task for her, “I am the Lord’s servant,” Mary answered. “May your word to me be fulfilled.” Then the angel left her.

Wow. Mind blown. I feel like a good portion of my life is God cleaning up my messes, and me doubting Him, that I can't imagine that feeling of just saying "Lord, go for it, use me for your purposes." I have matured a lot as a Christian, and I am willing to pray that prayer, but God usually has to do a lot of prodding to get me there.

Oh, that we can all have the faith of Mary in God's plan for us! Next blog I am going to discuss the shepherds encounter with the angel.